~Muvee Mood~

Yes! I'm in a muvee mood!! Arghh.. can't wait to get back this weekend. Can't wait to watch Iron Man2 and IP Man2. Hope that both will turn out to be great~ It's been a long long time since I get to watch a good movie in cinema. And I didn't get the chance to go and watch Alice in the wonderland =(

So, am really reaLLy looking forward towards this weekend! wheeee~~ ^^
Very tired.. Sorry for this short post~ will get you guys updated soon again! Good night everyone! *hugs*

~IP Man 2~

~Iron Man 2~

Uncertainties

I'm like many of my friends, standing at a junction of a crossroad, don't know which way to choose. To take Path A, just work and live along with life, expecting something to happen along the way.. OR Path B, confirmed with my ex-supervisor's suggestions, to take masters under another lecturer recommended by her.. OR Path C, to turn down my ex-supervisor's suggestions, and hopefully as agreed by another famous Professor that he will suggest me to his friend for my master.

Argghhh.. how how how?? Haizz.. This is really tough.. I don't know which route to take. Path A seems easy.. Path B, although I don't know what and how's the outcome will be, but it'll be a super challenging route as the other supervisor is in another field, which might not know anything about composting, but I believe him as a Doctorate holder, might have something which I could learn well from.. He might surprise me with something, who knows.. Path C, I don't know whether that Prof is only talking for fun, or is he serious in suggesting me to someone. And who's that someone?? hmmm... blurr..

I need to make a decision fast as my ex-supervisor require an answer. So that I won't keep the other supervisor saving a place for me for nothing. But I don't have an answer. Aiyo.... *cracking my head* Anybody have any suggestions for me? =.="

I have friends who're telling me to take path A.. as i'm already too busy with my work. That I can't split myself into 2 person. I have also friends encouraging me to take masters.. And what more my ex-supervisor seems sooooo interested in being my co-supervisor. Although she mentioned that she'll respect my decision, but still, I feel that it's really a good chance, and seeing her so enthusiast, I feel ashamed if I reject the offer. Haihzz.. really got no clue..

Now am at Sabah. Having flu + slight fever. Seems like many people over here fell sick. Maybe due to the environment? or stress of work? I don't know. What I know is i'm being emo again.. I think I better off to get some rest earlier today.

The Script - Breakeven

* * * I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in 'Cause I got time while she got freedom 'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven Her best days will be some of my worst She finally met a man that's gonna put her first While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping 'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no What am I suppose to do When the best part of me was always you and What am I suppose to say When I'm all choked up and you're okay I'm falling to pieces, yeah I'm falling to pieces They say bad things happen for a reason But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding 'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving And when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no What am I suppose to do When the best part of me was always you and What am I suppose to say When I'm all choked up and you're okay I'm falling to pieces, yeah I'm falling to pieces, yeah I'm falling to pieces (One's still in love while the other one's leaving) I'm falling to pieces ('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven) You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain You took your suitcase, I took the blame Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh 'Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in 'Cause I got time while she got freedom 'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't break No it don't break, no it don't breakeven, no What am I suppose to do When the best part of me was always you and What am I suppose to say When I'm all choked up and you're okay I'm falling to pieces, yeah I'm falling to pieces, yeah I'm falling to pieces (One's still in love while the other one's leaving) I'm falling to pieces ('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven) Oh, it don't breakeven, no Oh, it don't breakeven, no Oh, it don't breakeven, no * * *

A short break from work

Saturday and Sunday. Only 2 days for me to lepak around~ sad la~ I miss studying days! haha.. Tomorrow is Monday again! okok.. I shouldn't be negative~ should think positively! And I do love my work though.. Just sometimes feel that I want to have some time for my own, doing nothing at home. Laying on bed/sofa day dreaming. =p

I had a busy weekend this week, Saturday morning do laundry at home, evening went out yum cha with my lovely friends at ss2 Wong KoK. (Aikz.. Should have take a photo of us la..) Food wise was still acceptable. I like the environment as we sat on sofas chatted for few hours. After that small gathering, went to another friend's place to discuss our itinerary for Australia trip! (Yeap!! Thanks to Airasia promotion at an unbelievable price, which made my trip to Melbourne possible!)

Sunday morning, went karaoke with friends pulak! hehehe.. Really need this K session to release some of my frustration. Felt happier after singing~ ^^ Adding up to the make-me-happy events, I bought a dress from Nichii! Whee~~ love it! But then, after this, I need to be on budget as I'm going to Australia and Cambodia. hehe..

The happiest event to wrap up my weekend, is that my younger sister came back! Yay!! *hugs*

Some of the photos taken this morning.. =)

~Sing K session with friends @ The Gardens Redbox~

~Yummy Yummy.. Lunch at Redbox @ The Gardens~

~The Island Shop having fashion week at Mid Valley Megamall~

Sabah working trip

Just came back from Sabah! What a tiring flight.. Everytime after travelling i felt so tired. Because it took 3 hours from Tawau airport to LCCT. If you can sleep in the plane, then you're lucky as you won't feel as if you're tortured. If you can't sleep.. then really good luck lo~ because i feel that the design of Airasia's chair is not really comfortable for a long journey. But hey, if you fall asleep, you won't feel a thing. hahaha~ I wish they could improve on that. =p

By the way, there aren't any really extraordinary or interesting stuff recently. Just feel like blogging. Earlier when I was in the air plane (AK5155), it was the first time I saw a very spectacular view (I sat at the window seat). Looking through the window, faraway, I saw a clear night sky filled with blinking stars on top, and beneath on ground, I saw streets with bright lights in cities, while these 2 were separated by a heavy dark clouds in between! I guess it was raining heavily at that area as I saw lightning in between the clouds. Hmm... I know it's a bit hard to imagine.. but truely it's a great view!

After a long ride, finally touch down on ground again! This time bringing lighter luggage back as I've agreed to stay at head-quarters over at Sabah. Well, it's not at all that bad. We have tv, internet and laundry are also done for me. Practically like a hotel. Just without the tv in your room. haha~

Next Tuesday I'm flying down again. I think I'm taking the plane as if I'm taking bus...

ok~ I think that's all for now.. tired.. *yawn* Neeeeed to reeesstt Earrrr..earlyyy~ nitez everyone!

Weird + Troublesome life

It's weird to not hear your voice. It's weird to not see you again. It's weird that everything happen so sudden. It's weird to not see you commenting happily in fb. It's weird that I don't sms you anymore. It's weird that I don't know what are you up to lately. hmmm... Everything just felt like a dream.. weird...

Maybe because it's unexpected? I don't know.. Well.. This is a huge change in my life! Anyway, hopefully he's doing well on the other side.



Here in Sabah, everything is alright. Work is still busy as usual. I'm just thinking of how to sign up to a master programme while working. That'll be interesting to see how my work could be applied to the field! But i'm also scared that if I sign up, can I cope with both sides? It'll be so freaking stress! Haiihhhzzz~~ so troublesome to think of all these. Troublesome is another thing, but this way, I'll hit 2 birds with a stone! Get paid + master cert!



Naruto manga character: Shikamaru Nara - intelligent, easy-going character & likes to remark "how troublesome"

think think think.. decide decide decide.. Any suggestions???

Moving forward

Today is the 3rd day since we broke up. Although at times I still couldn't help myself but thinking about the past, like what one of my friend said: "no matter how hard you try, you still will think wan.. even pangsai (do big business in toilet) also will think." (who made this statement?? well, I'll let you guys to guess lar k~ P&C. LOL~), which is very true, well.. but I think I'm coping with my feelings quite well so far.

Anyway, special thanks to all my dear friends, jie mui(s) and heng dai(s) sekalian for the support, which help me go through this tough period. Somehow I felt better seeing all your sms-es, posts and comments. TQTQ *bow deeply*..

And not forgetting my mother, who gave me strength and support which meant so much to me.. Although I know my mom wouldn't read this, but still *hugs&kisses* love ya mummy~!

Ahhh... and I noticed many karen Mok's songs are actually quite touching.. why didn't i noticed that before? hmm.. Maybe when you're really sad.. and you listen to sad songs.. you'll feel as if the song is expressing your thoughts.. Here it is.. another song of Karen Mok - 忽然之间; Suddenly

the girl with her heart in p.i.e.c.e.s

I'm now, a broken hearted girl.. who awaits time to do the magic.. and heal the wounds, that so deeply cut through my heart.. I'm trying hard.. to not to cry everyday.. The amount of tears that i shed, for this long 2 weeks.. was more than the tears i cried throughout my life!

I know the decision you made is correct and logic.. But still.. it doesn't change the fact that i'm now a girl with her heart in pieces. But don't worry.. I'll be strong.. always looking forward to the future.. and not staying in the ghost of the past. I wish.. you could be a better person in future.. and come back and meet me as a better man. And we shall be friends, once more..

Good luck!

Fearful Weekend

Tomorrow it's Friday. But i'm not feeling happy at all. This is the first time in my life, that weekend looks so scary. Truthfully speaking.. I'm scared.. How to describe this kinda feeling.. It's almost like facing a death row..>.<

*Sigh* I hope, I pray.. that I'll get a good news for this weekend. Seriously, I need it to be a happy weekend.. But i'm freaking scared.. Everyday I asked myself why.. and end without an answer.. Which made me even nervous+confused..

I hope the angels will hear my prayers.. And give me the strength to face the moment..
I really hope so......

Confused

Yes, I'm confused. I don't know what should I feel right now? Happy? Sad? Disappointed? Relieve? I don't know.. I really don't.. *sigh* Now only I know, I'm not that strong after all! haha~ No matter what everyone said, or adviced.. Still couldn't be compared with what you're going to tell me. I noticed, only you, can save me, from this confused state of mind.

But I'm really thankful to all my dear friends who comforted me. Thanks peeps! *huggies* Anyway, no matter what might happen, I still have to face it right? Well, I guess this is what you call life~ Always unexpected.. So I'm trying to live everyday to the fullest.. live like we're dying. And.. give out my best, so that I won't regret!

Kris Allen - Live like we're dying~ =)

Be optimistic & Smile

Yup, just like what mentioned in the title, be optimistic and smile. In life, no matter how much you've planned, or do.. If it's fated that something will happen, then it will! No matter how hard you try. So, why not keep this kind of attitude, always give out your best, think positively, pray hard that everything will work! And if it doesn't, at least you know that, you have no regrets!

I'm praying hard, being optimistic, having faith, and never give up.. Because i know, it's not time yet~! Be brave, to stand up against challenges in life.. Today the sun shines brightly~ giving me a kind of positive energy! I wonder what about you?

Lets enjoy this song together while giving a huge smile to anyone beside you, pass on the smile and influence people to smile more~ So if anyone does read and follow it, and able to put a smile to anybody, do post a comment~

SMILE.. by Uncle Kracker =)

A trip near the nature?

Got a feeling of going for jungle trekking kinda activity~ But dunno where and who to go with.. Anybody interested? or anybody got such activity? coz me wanna join!!! hehe.. Remember during secondary school, every year surely go to FRIM (Forest Research Institute Malaysia) which located opposite our school. Science & Maths society will always organized a yearly jungle trekking activity. And the one i enjoyed the most is during Form 2, when the seniors held a treasure hunt activity where required teams to go through several stations and the first team to arrive at end point would be the winner. Although my team didn't win, but it was really FUN! because we need to trekked through forest grounds, go through rivers etc.. It was really coOL~

Not forgetting another great experienced after my form 3, where i joined my tuition center's trip after PMR to Fraser's Hill. Enjoyed a 7-hours jungle trekking in the day (supposed to be 5-hr, but then the guide himself lost his way~ LOL), and we had night trekking as well! It was really pitch black in the forest during the night. But if I remember correctly, there were few plant species, somehow illuminate in the dark, with a faint green color light. (okay~ i know what u guys are thinking.. but nope.. it's not supernatural.. really is the plant itself! haha!) 1 thing different from FRIM's trek is that, you could see different type of plants at different altitude. ^^ and to add in more to the fun, it started to rain half way through our trekking in the morning! Imagine~ icy cold whether + rain.. really unforgettable experience~!

SO........ I WANNA GO AGAINNnnnn~~ heheh~

Slightly relieve...

Can't sleep.. so i guess i'll write a blog before going to bed. Truthfully, I couldn't let my mind rest for these few days. Am I too obvious? until my colleague also thought I was not feeling well. And my parents finally asked.. But after talking with my parents, they give me more encouragement.. And also.. what surprises me is that, they're also very supportive and ask me to give comfort and support to the person i love. They said we're still young and not to rush things..

Thanks mum n dad! I'm so touched! Love yall LOADS~! and with their support.. i feel much much better.. the best within these few days~ and not forgetting my supportive friends.. Friends and family~ ^^ *huggies*

So if any of you couldn't find a way out from all the stress in life. Don't hesitate to talk with your parents. And don't forget your best friends around you, who'll always be all ears to listen.. *wink* Share your thoughts and voices to the world. And you'll feel much better~!