Starting of a New Challenge

Wondering what challenge am I talking about? It's my masters studies. Haha.. not exactly new as I've mentioned before in previous blog post, but till today I have not started my research project yet. Good news is.. finally after all these months, I'm starting very SOON! Most probably by December~ It's being delayed as I've a crazy working schedule~

And what more early Dec, our ex-prime minister Tun M is visiting the composting plant along with 60 other visitors. Although my role is not exactly major in this project, well.. it's still something~ ^^ I'm flying down to Sabah again next week~ So, there goes another week away from KL. I actually plan to start my masters by Oct 2010, seems like it's not at all that easy. Hopefully able to kick start by December!

Another thing that i'm so troubled with, I've never written any business proposal or some sort of documents (except for minor ones which doesn't involve large sum), and I'm still struggling on how to estimate the entire cost of my research project. As I need to prepare one as R&D that fits the company's nature of business, and get a sponsorship in my research as well. Otherwise, it'll definitely burn a hole in my pocket to buy all that chemicals, reagents and whatever enzyme standards there is.. O.o" ---> this, is really a big headache! >.<"

Well, I can't really say that I'm totally enjoying doing all these troublesome procedure (i think i have more interest in learning japanese language than in my research project in the mean time.. =.="), but.. as troublesome as it is, I'm practically pushing myself for it~ cause I don't want to have any regrets in future. There's no harm in pushing yourself to learn or do something that'll increase your knowledge and skills~ as these will be your secret weapon in the road to success! At least, that's what i believe.. ^^

Looking back in time, where my friends & I used to gather around, discussing on what possible routes that we'll take in future.. Talking about dreams that we have in mind, and worries on the bio-related field, we share our thoughts and problems with each other. Knowing that being a researcher in Msia, doesn't get a high pay (even starting pay is below average.. how depressing can it be~). And then, even before graduation, some already fixed in mind that they'll be continuing their masters studies straight away, some determined to challenge a different field, some just desire to start somewhere which is in the same field.

I still remember how lost i felt upon graduation, having to go through 4 months job-hunting process, trying all possible field related companies/universities, even joined a training programme which the actual start date kept being pushed back. And after all that stress & struggle, the taste of happiness upon getting a job offer, is still fresh in mind~ As time goes by, the milestone that I've come to today, I'm quite happy with it. Although the pay is not high compared to other fields, but i guess I'm contented because I'm involved in creating a greener world and gained invaluable experiences along the way. In the blink of an eye, a year has passed from the day I started working. But I'll never forget, the little chit-chat sessions that we spent at mamak during high school & Uni times.. And how we promised to lookout for each others back~ and cheered for our long lasting friendship during our graduation trip~ ^^

Alright, I'll end my post with this wonderful song from:
Aqua Timez - Plumeria~Hana Uta~

* * * Aqua Timez - Plumeria~Hana Uta~ When this dream, this dream comes true someday You’ll be there, yes, you’ll be there Wouldn’t it be great to softly smile together? It’s almost as if on that day I met you the sky moved in nothing but slow motion It felt like just one thing was promised when we met in the wind The high number of times I looked down also fell When I was alone again, I began to think that I shouldn’t search for a smile Even when our hands were connected, even when you were at my side in this world where our hearts separate us You simply repainted this world where endless far-off feelings exist When this dream, this dream comes true someday You’ll be there, yes, you’ll be there Wouldn’t it be great to softly smile together? If I think about it, even that moment where your flower song dyes my life changes colour everyday I’ve always lived my life blaming something on others And never trying to do something for anyone else Under the whole starry sky, I remembered how we used to talk together about how our dreams were small but still existed Like standing up an oath to the quiet sky, you were honest to me When that dream, that dream comes true someday I’ll be at your side, yes, I’ll be at your side Wouldn’t it be great to softly smile together? While humming my favourite song And while thinking lovingly about you as you poured water into the decorated flower vase by the window I made a strong oath to my heart Even when a fleeting-like future is reflected in those eyes I’ll be at your side, forever, yes, forever So it’s okay, and… Even if this song gets wilted in the shadow of fads This song will surely someday make the indifferent you who hasn’t changed listen to it, in the form of a “flower song” And surely, you will love this song Credits: http://coolcwer.wordpress.com/

♥P@R3ntS♥

Come across this clip.. it's about how great parents' love towards their children, and how children also take it for granted. Well, when i read it through, it's kinda true. Haha.. I should be playing a better role next time as a daughter. Although i didn't really say this much, but mom and dad~ I Love you!!! ♥ ^^

Here's the video's link:
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=142049885843454

I remember there was once, my dad was fetching me home, he suddenly said this to me: "我最大的成就，就是有你们三个（小孩）！" "My biggest achievement, is having all three of you (children)"

And i could see him grinning.. And mind you, my dad is not at all sentimental type of person. That was the first time i heard something like that from him. He's always so tough and straight forward in giving comments and teaching us about life, about what's the right thing to do. But that was something that i really surprised to hear. And everytime when i'm feeling down/lazy/slacking in my work.. or when i feel that i'm so stressed and want to give up.. That comment, my dad's voice will ring in my head. So.. i'll never give up, because I don't want to let my dad down.

And my mom is truly a awesome one as well! I seriously can't imagine myself working more than 12 hours a day, and continue doing house chores after that, and with less than 5 hours of sleep everyday too.. She's really a superwoman! @.@ I'm always impressed by my mom's capability and determination! I wonder could I ever do all those repetitively for 30 over years?? >.<"

SOoooo.. the point is.. I have an awesome parents!! Love yall from the bottom of my heart~ ♥mwahh♥ And I'll always give my best, to not disappoint you.. This is a promise.. =)

Longest work trip

It's the longest work trip I have in this 1 year.. usually i'll be down here for a week, this time i'm down for 2 weeks! Well, it's not at all that bad. I've learnt to be more independent and confident while facing the contractors and project managers here. People who understands me well, know that I'm not exactly the outspoken type of person, and it's tough as sometimes I just can't converse proper sentences in english. hahah~~ =.="

Always should be extra careful when giving any comments, or else easily i'll be out of the picture. As I'm walking through this new stage of life, the more you see, the more you listen, the more you'll know how this working society operates. If you can't perform, it's just as easy as replacing you anytime, whenever your superior feels like it. Unless you're really very good at something that not many people know that is.

Well, that's just my view on the working society. Politics going on everywhere~ And people skill is really something extremely important to survive~ At many times, i thought that yes I'm really lucky to be the only girl on-site. At least they won't go on harsh with me, and of course, being the youngest on team also counts. But that gives me a major disadvantage as well, cause people won't take you seriously due to young age and lack of experiences.

Anyway, all this is good experience~ And I believe I have slowly gaining the team respect on me. A very good advice i received from a technical person from UK is that: "throw away all those chinese tradition that YOU MUST RESPECT YOUR BOSS kinda perception. No matter who it is, even if your boss, he should EARN your respect."

Yea.. I have to EARN other's respect as well! So everyone~ all the best and let us work hard to solve any problems that you're facing right now!! *hwaiting*

p/s watching SungKyungKwanScandal lately, it's quite nice. ^^ Sharing one of the ost sung by Jaejoong, To you it's separation, for me it's waiting~

Why I love TVXQ~ ^^

You might say that I’m over doing this, especially at my age, to be crazy and all over TVXQ. Hahaha~ but I don’t mind it at all. I mean, I really LOVE them.. Not love as in always daydreaming of getting together with them, but I love them for having such great determination, knowing that they too.. like many of us, (or even worst), that they were once suffering from poverty. And today, their achievement is recognized worldwide! Having a biggest fan base, 800,000 (that’s just for Korean fans, haven’t including fans from Japan and other countries) and managed to get into Guinness Records in 2008.

I started to love their songs after witnessing their first LIVE concert in Malaysia (2006), I’m totally amazed by their vocals. And after their debut in Japan, their major improvement in stamina by singing perfectly while dancing is great! The members always giving their best in each performance; always seek for improvement which makes them more captivating.

Yes, they are just like any other ordinary people, but the fact that they don’t give up easily, always trying their best, always seek for improvement (by comparing that their quality of LIVE performances back at 2005, which is not as consistent as today; managed to learn and speak Japanese fluently and top Oricon chart a few times; and the members started to compose songs & lyrics (in the beginning, it was just Yuchun composing); and now JYJ going into English album!).. I think that are the qualities that showed by them, which motivates and inspired me to push myself even more.

So others always wonder how I managed to pull off such a hectic lifestyle. Seriously, I think that it’s just a matter of mindset. Yes, I didn’t deny that I have limited knowledge and capability in many areas, but if I’m given a task, I’ll try before giving up. Try to understand, learn, and perform. Don’t be scared of failure, as you learn along the way to success. Don’t fear that how people might look at you if you fail, what mattered most is that you’ve tried your best, and you’ll keep on trying until you finally succeed. I believe that’s what in sync of my personality with TVXQ’s members, which makes me love them! Taking one step at a time, although this route is rough and tough.. But once you’ve managed to complete a task, the satisfaction is there!

“Dreams in sleep, are always sweet and beautiful. But only a true dream, makes you feel alive!” –Quote Jaejoong.

Recent JYJ’s showcase in Malaysia was AWESOME! As expected, their LIVE was AMAZING! I’m glad that I attended (although it’s costly for that short 45mins I would say?) But if compared to the first concert, I think they felt the love from MY-Cassies (MY=Malaysia) this time ^^. Organizer, Redstar Present did a great job by having a Korean translator and with big screen capturing JYJ’s expression on stage (I’ve attended several album showcase and concerts before, and the big screen usually showing MVs or moving background images, which I think it’s quite pointless!). And the banners surrounding the stadium are very sweet and meaningful too.

MY-Cassiopeia Fan activities organized by MY-TVXQZONE! And Saranghae Project teams are great as well. The time and effort that they put in to help purchasing bulk tickets, T-shirts, lightsticks and designing the fanchant and promoting this event is really hardwork! Even though they are students that sitting for exam (1 day before the showcase) and people from working society, they’ve put in so much effort! *salute*

The fanchant for the song Chajatta was a success. Okay~okay~ I admit that I’m childish for doing all this. But seriously, it’s hell lot of fun doing with the other fans.. first time experiencing it! Haha! Usually only get to see fans from other country like Korea and Japan doing it, which is quite a spectacular view from the videos~ I think Malaysia fans are kinda shy, or maybe we’re not experienced enough in fan activities?? I think the fanchant we did is the first in Malaysia for idols & artists. And this First experience is wonderful~ wuahaha~ *swt right* ^^”

Alright, view the Chajatta Video from JYJ showcase!
Date: 17.10.10
Venue: Stadium Merdeka, KL


Pics taken on JYJ showcase!

~My sis & I~

~Happenings before the showcase starts @Stadium Negara~

~J.Y.J~

♥Red Ocean from 4000++ MY-cassies♥ ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH ♥1000 special edition album sold on 17.10.10♥

View a forum post I created at LYN:
JYJ "The Beginning" Showcase in Malaysia!

~Series of Events~

Aloha everyone!! How's everyone doing lately? It's been a while since last i posted. Wondering where I've been?? haha~ I was in Australia~ Cambodia~ for vacation.. and still travelling to Sabah every now and then for work.

-August-
It was an enjoyable and relaxing trip to Australia.. First time get to experience winter (although it was not snowing)~ ^^ the average temperature back then was 7 degree C. It's still OK if its still air, but when the wind started to blow, that's when you'll be freezing. South of Melbourne, Victoria, is a nice pleasant place. Overall, I love Melbourne~ we managed to go to quite a number of places i.e. Victoria market, Springvale, Box Hill, Yarra Valley, Great Ocean Road, Phillip Island and of course Melbourne city. We even visited Melbourne Zoo!! Next time, would love to visit Melbourne during Spring.. there'll be a whole lot of different activities down there! with all the flowers blossom~ and fruiting season for cherries~ *yum yum*



-September-
Went to Siem Reap, Cambodia~~ In a short 5D 4N trip, managed to go visiting the Tonle Sap lake, learn about the lifestyle of the locals at water village is really something new. And of course not to miss Ang Kor Wat!! It was the state temple and part of capital back in 12th Century, built for King Suryavarman II. There are many temples around, so many that we bought 3 days pass, and still couldn't managed to visit all of them. Stepping into the ruins of Ang Kor Wat was like traveling into a different dimension. It's an indescribable feeling. Definitely worth a visit~! Through photos you couldn't really understand what i meant, but if you're standing there, looking at those amazing architectural & craft works~ it's just simply breath taking.



-October-
What?? It's just the beginning of the month and I've already have plans?? hahaha~ you're right! I'm going to JYJ new album, "The Beginning" showcase!!! Yeah! really looking forward to it~ since i missed the last concert. Although they're only 3 of them, oh well, they're LIVE performances in Japan were all awesome! I bought RM300 ticket and I know I'll never regret it as they'll surely perform well. ^^ OK~ i sounded like a school girl. haha~ but what to do, as I really love their songs~ =p all My-Cassies, see you all at Stadium Negara, KL on 17th OCt!! same goes to JYJ~!!!

Details of showcase:
Time: Sunday, October 17 · 2:00pm - 4:00pm
Location: Stadium Negara, Kuala Lumpur

Where to get the Tickets?? -Quoted from other Cassie-
"visit www.fatdeal.com.my or
Sungai Wang Plaza,Bangsar Shopping Center, Tropicana City Mall, G26, Ground Floor, Amcorp Mall.
...
Tickets may also be purchased through Rock Corner;
1. The Curve
2. KLCC
3. The Gardens
4. Subang Parade
5. 1 utama

hurry !for those who haven't buy yet, get youself a ticket now ;) or maybe to there during the weekend ! lets make a perfect red ocean for them ♥"
http://www.fatdeal.com.my/
www.fatdeal.com.my"

Join facebook event page created by RedStar Present at:
http://www.facebook.com/?ref=logo#!/event.php?eid=100215126712555

and showcase support group at:
http://www.facebook.com/?ref=logo#!/group.php?gid=152337538133908

Hectic days

Hey people, I got a really hectic schedule.. So won't be able to blog anytime soon. Anyway, I'll try my best to blog a short one once in a while ya~ Good luck to everyone in their daily activities!! Oh by the way, just thought of sharing it.. Oh well... Kinda embarrased.. but here it goes.. My very first self-recording song. Erm.. didn't edit it since I'm new to the recording software Audacity and got no time for it. So i did a simple one and uploaded it.. Want to hear more comments on what i can improve on. haha~ ^^




And here is another song for all my friends out there.. Remember~ to take 1 step at a time to your dream.. =D

HÖÞe•ƒiGh†•Fu†ÚRe

Stop messing around and start getting yourself focus!! Yes~ that's what I should do right now.. I must get my head straight and always remind myself this. NOt to look back at the things that can't be changed.. and grab hold of those that have yet to occur. Coz I don't want one day in future.. to look back today and regret for not putting enough effort in achieving my goals~

Yes, there's a dream of mine.. seems far~ but it's not impossible to reach it.. I'll always keep that in mind.. Give my best~ so that I won't have any regrets! There's a quote i read it on top of a diary book previously.. it sounded like this.. "opportunities are everywhere, it's just whether you dare to take it or not"

So.. dare to dream.. and dream BIG~!!! take 1 step at a time.. to achieve it!!!


Sharing this energetic rock song to fire up some fighting spirit!
Maze- by Jaejoong

*This video is without subbed.. the subbed vers kinda lag.. >.< but if interested, please click the following link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BiYMHlT1uVs
-Credits: Angeldbsk@youtube*

* * * MAZE (complete translation) * by HERO a.k.a Jaejoong * * What is "freedom"? What is "correct"? I have a strange dream, a wandering shadow... It seems I can see it but I can't see anything at all; it's an illusion Being left behind in the hectic everyday, Depressed and in a distorted time-line * Rush ahead! Fly through the strong wind To a place that's suffused in LiGHt and offers HÖÞe Picking up the pieces of a dream I once had, I'll keep running down the path I believe in In order to live true to myself Shouldering the burden of both sins and retribution, My spirit has withered away The pouring rain soaks me, As though it would wash away this destiny of hatred I'm just wandering alone in this intricate MAZE Searching for the place I belong Fly high! Embrace the blazing passion that flames know Enough to tear the sky Standing firmly on the rubble of lies, In order to discover a yet unknown world "Don't be afraid" Crying out, from the bottom of my heart To be "me"... * Rush ahead! Fly through the strong wind To a place that's suffused in LiGHt and offers HÖÞe Picking up the pieces of a dream I once had, I'll keep running down the PAtH I BeLiEvE in! To live tRuE to myself, I'll keep on running * * * Credits: lunatunalover @ blogspot -lyric Credits: asheprincess @ youtube -video * * *

Stand by U

Feel like buying the original live DVD for TVXQ LIVE Tokyo Dome 2009 performance~ they performed really well. Watched many clips so far recorded from that performance, and all songs are sang PERFECTO!! no off tunes and excellent stamina~ @.@

hehe.. well, the japan fans a.k.a Bigeast (Korea official fanclub called Cassiopeia, Japan's called Bigeast) are awesome as well.. I don't know how they managed it, but it seems the entire hall synchronized and changes from red sea into blue sea. hahaha! What a spectacular view~

The official color (Yes, there's an official color for many famous groups in Korea.. ex: super junior - blue, SNSD-pink etc etc..) for TVXQ is red.. so many of their concerts you can see the "red sea" effect.. but to convince all the fans to buy 2 colors and switch them at the same time for the entire hall is pretty cooL~ hahah..

Xiah was so surprised and happy.. LOL~ anyway.. I've included some short speeches before they perform the song.. Enjoy~~







Stand by U - by TVXQ


Love the lyrics of this song.. hmm~ there is a period i felt that way.. but now, I felt free~ and this song remains as a recall of a memory.. And also would like to entitled it to all my friends~ who always shows love & support.. And all of you.. will always in my heart, a special someone..

Without each and every 1 of you by my side.. I'll definitely not be me, as who you know today.. Thanks for all the sweet, crazy and happy memories.. Thanks for the tears and laughter that we shared.. Thanks for all advices, encouragement and comments.. Thanks for those sweet wishes.. and many many more.. Thank U all my friends! Although we might not have keep in touch for a long time, but still for a certain period of my life, as long as you have met n talked to me.. it meant sth for me. =D

For those who're pursuing studies, all the best in exams n get a good research results!! And those who're working.. good luck in climbing the ladder of success!!! and remember.. I'll always Stand by U.. ^^

*Success keeps you glowing, but only Friends keep you moving*

The Beauty of Nature

Time really flies.. It's been a week since I came back from EM workshop at Thailand. Still haven't got the time to arrange all the photos from my cam and my hp cam and other participants' cam.. goshh~ now i've got too many photos.. Don't know where to start. hahah~

I'll keep this post sweet and simple. After the workshop, I've finally realize that where does my interest lies.. And yes, it's related to the title for this post. Nature.. We often didn't realize, the importance of keeping the environment clean. Taking for granted of what we have, and what have been given to us from the mother nature. We take what we want, but didn't make the effort to put back what we've taken.

And to make things worse, throwing toxic and non environmentally friendly waste back to the nature. Before pointing fingers onto big companies from the industrial sector, every person should look back at your daily activities, take the first step by playing your own role to help preserving our mother nature. Not only for our own good, but also for all other living organisms that share the same home (Earth) as us, human beings, and also for the next generation.

After a heavy down pour, i managed to take a photo of rainbow near my place last Thursday.. and at that moment, i could feel...P.E.A.C.E...



Ahhh~ on the other hand.. browse through youtube and found this song.. Would like to share it~ Enjoy!!

Natsu no Owari by Moriyama Naotaro

All time favourite boyband~

Who?? TVXQ!!! haha.. news of them disbanding is really saddening. Damn! I hope SM Entertainment would not be so cruel.. Since TVXQ's group activity started to cease for the court case, this is the first performance of JYJ (Jaejoong-Yoochun-Junsu)after this whole while. Under the company in Japan, Avex, they managed to held concerts during June 2010 at Kyocera Dome Osaka and Tokyo Dome. Without the other 2 members, team leader U-know Yunho and Max Changmin, somehow seems kinda weird for me.

It's funny that how fate and luck just happen like that, changing everything within a blink of an eye. Just about a year ago (sometime in June 2009), TVXQ after fighting so hard as an outcomer (i meant by they're KOREAN boyband, trying to beat in the hits at Japan), it must have been very tough. Remembered i read an article,saying that, at times they thought of giving up as they have not much accomplishment after quite a long while at Japan (i think they didn't get to return to Korea for about a year, to push their fame in Japan). And finally they did it! They pulled off a great concert at Tokyo Dome (it's super huge, a famed Dome and a dream arena for them to perform on that stage) in 2009.

An article about their last year's performance:
http://www.koreatimes.co.kr/www/news/art/2010/01/201_47987.html

And.. a clip of their final song at Tokyo Dome in 2009:
Song title: PROUD


The 5 members comments on their own performance.. hahaha~ ^^


Today's JYJ performance in Kyocera dome (I embed this instead of tokyo dome as this is the 1st performance after soooooo long):
Song title: W


OK~~ can't get a better video as this is still very new.. the DVD version of that concert is not released yet. This video was taken by a fan during the concert. Anyway, if you're wondering why the song title is so weird = "W"..
That's because TVXQ is also known as TVfXQ, and it forms a "W" on your keyboard, and this leads to the name given to all TVfXQ's fans = Cassiopeia. Cassiopeia is actually a constellation of stars in northern sky. And the stars give the shape "W" or a crown. And only with the 5 of them on stage, you could see a "W" standing formation.. Hence, that's why the song "W".. they sang it so intensely~

This song "W", is written and composed by Xiah Junsu. If you read the meaning of lyrics, it's intended for Yunho and Changmin, and also Cassiopeia. All three of them shed tears when they sang this song. Straight after the song ends, Jae who seldoms cries, seen rushing down the stage crying. (This section is not shown in the above clip, ) Gosh! that must have been hard for them to take all these recent events. Anyway, it's just sad that they can't perform together.. sad indeed..

I wonder what is the fate for TVXQ.. nobody knows.. so people~ grab hold of now, enjoy every single moment that you're having. Because life is never certain and anything might just happen at the most unexpected time. Live life to the fullest and always be prepared for the worst.

♥ ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH ♥

Side note: 200,000 fans showed up for JYJ's LIVE DOME concerts in Japan in June 2010. And over 1 million of ticket applicants recorded.. that's so cooL~ All tickets sold!

~JYJ LIVE @ Tokyo Dome~

Info credits :allkpop.com; TVXQ Fangirl ^_^;fanaccount; koreatimes
Video credits :ZOO SN1; bioneuron; AishiS2DBSK @ youtube
Photo credit :tvxqindo.com

Don't forget - Wasurenaide 忘れないで by TVXQ

It's been a while since i'm into TVXQ's updates again.. I really hope they don't disband as they're so far the only boyband that would always amazed me with their beautiful vocals especially during live performances. I wonder how they train up their stamina to sing so well while dancing. @.@??

Went to their first concert in Malaysia and loved them ever since. I've got hooked up with several of their japanese songs like Love in the ice, Kiss shitamama sayonara, Bolero and now this --> Wasurenaide. A very touching song composed and written by Jaejoong a.k.a Hero. Ahhh~~ ok, undeniable, i'm a big fan of his. Love his vocal~
♥~♥ ^^

Thought of sharing it here with my dear friends.. Enjoy!♥
Don't forget me - Wasurenaide 忘れないで by TVXQ

* * * Wasurenaide (Complete Translation) Don’t Forget Me HERO: I sit on my bed and think of you It’s alright even if I can’t see you… I miss you, but just this feeling is enough MAX: The memories of you remain, they’re so strong I read a short message from you and it makes my chest tighten painfully But I want to keep protecting your eternal happiness XIAH: * I’ll become the wind and wrap gently around you Right now, I want to fly to a world with you in it Even though I want to see you so much… I miss you so much… I’m waiting for you, don’t forget me U-KNOW: On the path we’d always walk, I felt your presence Silently, I close my eyes and pray that it’ll never disappear MICKY: Without acknowleding the things that hurt you deeply, you just kept on laughing and smiling I’ll always remember and cherish that And I’ll keep yelling out to the world, even if the words I use are but ordinary * I’ll become the wind and wrap gently around you Right now, I want to fly to a world with you in it Even though I want to see you so much… I miss you so much… I’m waiting for you, don’t forget me MICKY: The nights touched by you… It’s enough to break me; your fragrance hanging in the air and these feelings that build up, baby MAX: So that this’ll never end, I’ll hold your hand even tighter So that we’ll never be separated… * I’ll become the wind and wrap gently around you Right now, I want to fly to a world with you in it Even though I want to see you so much… I miss you so much… I’m waiting for you, don’t forget me * I’ll become the wind and wrap gently around you Right now, I want to fly to a world with you in it Even though I want to see you so much… I miss you so much… I’m waiting for you, don’t forget me HERO: I’m right here, don’t forget me Source:dbsg@lj Credits:ONLYKPOP * * * ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH (TVXQ hwaiting!)

Courage to face life

Courage.. Yes, it seems easy to understand what it is, but often in real life, many people fail to take out their courage, to face difficulties/challenges. Well, life is like a roller coaster, there are ups and downs. When you're climbing high, you'll feel as if the entire world is under controlled, you feel safe, and have more confident in whatever tasks that you do. But when you suddenly plunge from the peak to the bottom, the real challenges finally arise. That's the time, the moment, where you feel that you're at your weakest point.

I could say that most people, at that point of time, mentally and emotionally are unstable. Consumed by your own fear of losing everything that you have/ feeling ashamed/ felt that every passerby sees you as a joker etc etc. All these negative thoughts/feelings will tends to take over ones mind, and eventually leads a person to feel as if it's the end of his/her world.

Well, my thought on this kind of situation is, a person, whether he/she is truely strong mentally and emotionally, is judged by the period taken for the recovery process. How fast he/she could get over the sad/self-blaming period, and bounce back into fighting to change their life. People whom stands up on their on feet in a shortest period of time, and willing to accept critics and challenges from bottom up all over again, are those that having and truly understands what is the meaning of COURAGE.

This word lets me think over and over again, which I thought I might as well blog and share my voice to the world. So what do you readers think?

Ahh~ I could say that, my previous relationship allows me to experience the downside of it, during the breakup. Yes, I don't deny that I've always thought this relationship will last forever, although it didn't went as I wished it would, but I never regretted it for happening.. The feeling of being the person, who wants a breakup, and the feeling to be the person that wanted the relationship to continue, is very different indeed. Weeks has passed and the clock still ticking away, it's funny to still be able to see things with his shadows. However, I'm slowly releasing my tightly closed fist, that has always been clinging onto this relationship.....

I hope for the best for both of us, and to the rest of the world. No matter what hardship that you're going through, family and friends, will always be the best refuge. Be positive, and get back up fighting~!!

Living the moment

Have been waiting for a long time for my update? Yaikz.. apologize for the delay in posting. Anyway, I've been really busy for the past weeks. Many problems encountered at work. Well, anything that happens, it'll eventually rolls off and solved as time goes by. So i'm living the actual moment everyday. Give my best, hope for the best and no regrets!

Ahh.. have finally watched both Ironman2 and Ipman2~ both are great movies! Enjoyed them! ^^ my short term goal being fulfilled. Am a happy gal right now.. wuaahahaha~ Ooo.. i'm falling in love with the character "Yip man" So cool and care for his family so much. So guys out there, learn sth from the character other than the cool part. hahahah~ =p Ironman never fail me in the high-tech gadgets. i like the part at the track "pass him the box" and when he open and fits in the suitcase-like box with his feet it started transforming.. that was pretty cool.

Ohh.. today is Mother's Day! My brother brought us all out for a treat at La Carritas at USJ Taipan. They serve great Mexican food such as Fajitas. Erm.. sadly others i can't remember the name of the dishes! But really thumbs up for the food over there. Delicious! And not forgetting also liquor! We ordered a variety of them to try it out.. hahah~ The photos are not with me currently. Will re-update this post with few juicy photos that makes you want to try it out! *wink*

Hmm.. I notice i'm posting about me being tired quite frequent. haha.. Really lack of rest. Even weekend also full of activities. But i need those few moments of entertainment before going back to work. Often feel like how good if there's an extra day off just for me to rest at home doing nothing. geez.. *day dreaming*

People say.. when u're enjoying/having fun, time flies.. When u're busy with something important, time flies.. well yeah.. there goes my weekend! Tomorrow is Monday again~ better rest earlier.. Nitez to everyone! ^^

*As promised.. Photos updated!*

Mother's Day 2010

~Serve delicious Mexican food~

~tequila sunrise~

~happy family!!~

~daddy enjoying his huge glass of Hoegaarden~

~Love ya mummy!~

~Muvee Mood~

Yes! I'm in a muvee mood!! Arghh.. can't wait to get back this weekend. Can't wait to watch Iron Man2 and IP Man2. Hope that both will turn out to be great~ It's been a long long time since I get to watch a good movie in cinema. And I didn't get the chance to go and watch Alice in the wonderland =(

So, am really reaLLy looking forward towards this weekend! wheeee~~ ^^
Very tired.. Sorry for this short post~ will get you guys updated soon again! Good night everyone! *hugs*

~IP Man 2~

~Iron Man 2~

Uncertainties

I'm like many of my friends, standing at a junction of a crossroad, don't know which way to choose. To take Path A, just work and live along with life, expecting something to happen along the way.. OR Path B, confirmed with my ex-supervisor's suggestions, to take masters under another lecturer recommended by her.. OR Path C, to turn down my ex-supervisor's suggestions, and hopefully as agreed by another famous Professor that he will suggest me to his friend for my master.

Argghhh.. how how how?? Haizz.. This is really tough.. I don't know which route to take. Path A seems easy.. Path B, although I don't know what and how's the outcome will be, but it'll be a super challenging route as the other supervisor is in another field, which might not know anything about composting, but I believe him as a Doctorate holder, might have something which I could learn well from.. He might surprise me with something, who knows.. Path C, I don't know whether that Prof is only talking for fun, or is he serious in suggesting me to someone. And who's that someone?? hmmm... blurr..

I need to make a decision fast as my ex-supervisor require an answer. So that I won't keep the other supervisor saving a place for me for nothing. But I don't have an answer. Aiyo.... *cracking my head* Anybody have any suggestions for me? =.="

I have friends who're telling me to take path A.. as i'm already too busy with my work. That I can't split myself into 2 person. I have also friends encouraging me to take masters.. And what more my ex-supervisor seems sooooo interested in being my co-supervisor. Although she mentioned that she'll respect my decision, but still, I feel that it's really a good chance, and seeing her so enthusiast, I feel ashamed if I reject the offer. Haihzz.. really got no clue..

Now am at Sabah. Having flu + slight fever. Seems like many people over here fell sick. Maybe due to the environment? or stress of work? I don't know. What I know is i'm being emo again.. I think I better off to get some rest earlier today.

The Script - Breakeven

* * * I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in 'Cause I got time while she got freedom 'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven Her best days will be some of my worst She finally met a man that's gonna put her first While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping 'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no What am I suppose to do When the best part of me was always you and What am I suppose to say When I'm all choked up and you're okay I'm falling to pieces, yeah I'm falling to pieces They say bad things happen for a reason But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding 'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving And when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no What am I suppose to do When the best part of me was always you and What am I suppose to say When I'm all choked up and you're okay I'm falling to pieces, yeah I'm falling to pieces, yeah I'm falling to pieces (One's still in love while the other one's leaving) I'm falling to pieces ('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven) You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain You took your suitcase, I took the blame Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh 'Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in 'Cause I got time while she got freedom 'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't break No it don't break, no it don't breakeven, no What am I suppose to do When the best part of me was always you and What am I suppose to say When I'm all choked up and you're okay I'm falling to pieces, yeah I'm falling to pieces, yeah I'm falling to pieces (One's still in love while the other one's leaving) I'm falling to pieces ('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven) Oh, it don't breakeven, no Oh, it don't breakeven, no Oh, it don't breakeven, no * * *

A short break from work

Saturday and Sunday. Only 2 days for me to lepak around~ sad la~ I miss studying days! haha.. Tomorrow is Monday again! okok.. I shouldn't be negative~ should think positively! And I do love my work though.. Just sometimes feel that I want to have some time for my own, doing nothing at home. Laying on bed/sofa day dreaming. =p

I had a busy weekend this week, Saturday morning do laundry at home, evening went out yum cha with my lovely friends at ss2 Wong KoK. (Aikz.. Should have take a photo of us la..) Food wise was still acceptable. I like the environment as we sat on sofas chatted for few hours. After that small gathering, went to another friend's place to discuss our itinerary for Australia trip! (Yeap!! Thanks to Airasia promotion at an unbelievable price, which made my trip to Melbourne possible!)

Sunday morning, went karaoke with friends pulak! hehehe.. Really need this K session to release some of my frustration. Felt happier after singing~ ^^ Adding up to the make-me-happy events, I bought a dress from Nichii! Whee~~ love it! But then, after this, I need to be on budget as I'm going to Australia and Cambodia. hehe..

The happiest event to wrap up my weekend, is that my younger sister came back! Yay!! *hugs*

Some of the photos taken this morning.. =)

~Sing K session with friends @ The Gardens Redbox~

~Yummy Yummy.. Lunch at Redbox @ The Gardens~

~The Island Shop having fashion week at Mid Valley Megamall~

Sabah working trip

Just came back from Sabah! What a tiring flight.. Everytime after travelling i felt so tired. Because it took 3 hours from Tawau airport to LCCT. If you can sleep in the plane, then you're lucky as you won't feel as if you're tortured. If you can't sleep.. then really good luck lo~ because i feel that the design of Airasia's chair is not really comfortable for a long journey. But hey, if you fall asleep, you won't feel a thing. hahaha~ I wish they could improve on that. =p

By the way, there aren't any really extraordinary or interesting stuff recently. Just feel like blogging. Earlier when I was in the air plane (AK5155), it was the first time I saw a very spectacular view (I sat at the window seat). Looking through the window, faraway, I saw a clear night sky filled with blinking stars on top, and beneath on ground, I saw streets with bright lights in cities, while these 2 were separated by a heavy dark clouds in between! I guess it was raining heavily at that area as I saw lightning in between the clouds. Hmm... I know it's a bit hard to imagine.. but truely it's a great view!

After a long ride, finally touch down on ground again! This time bringing lighter luggage back as I've agreed to stay at head-quarters over at Sabah. Well, it's not at all that bad. We have tv, internet and laundry are also done for me. Practically like a hotel. Just without the tv in your room. haha~

Next Tuesday I'm flying down again. I think I'm taking the plane as if I'm taking bus...

ok~ I think that's all for now.. tired.. *yawn* Neeeeed to reeesstt Earrrr..earlyyy~ nitez everyone!

Weird + Troublesome life

It's weird to not hear your voice. It's weird to not see you again. It's weird that everything happen so sudden. It's weird to not see you commenting happily in fb. It's weird that I don't sms you anymore. It's weird that I don't know what are you up to lately. hmmm... Everything just felt like a dream.. weird...

Maybe because it's unexpected? I don't know.. Well.. This is a huge change in my life! Anyway, hopefully he's doing well on the other side.



Here in Sabah, everything is alright. Work is still busy as usual. I'm just thinking of how to sign up to a master programme while working. That'll be interesting to see how my work could be applied to the field! But i'm also scared that if I sign up, can I cope with both sides? It'll be so freaking stress! Haiihhhzzz~~ so troublesome to think of all these. Troublesome is another thing, but this way, I'll hit 2 birds with a stone! Get paid + master cert!



Naruto manga character: Shikamaru Nara - intelligent, easy-going character & likes to remark "how troublesome"

think think think.. decide decide decide.. Any suggestions???

Moving forward

Today is the 3rd day since we broke up. Although at times I still couldn't help myself but thinking about the past, like what one of my friend said: "no matter how hard you try, you still will think wan.. even pangsai (do big business in toilet) also will think." (who made this statement?? well, I'll let you guys to guess lar k~ P&C. LOL~), which is very true, well.. but I think I'm coping with my feelings quite well so far.

Anyway, special thanks to all my dear friends, jie mui(s) and heng dai(s) sekalian for the support, which help me go through this tough period. Somehow I felt better seeing all your sms-es, posts and comments. TQTQ *bow deeply*..

And not forgetting my mother, who gave me strength and support which meant so much to me.. Although I know my mom wouldn't read this, but still *hugs&kisses* love ya mummy~!

Ahhh... and I noticed many karen Mok's songs are actually quite touching.. why didn't i noticed that before? hmm.. Maybe when you're really sad.. and you listen to sad songs.. you'll feel as if the song is expressing your thoughts.. Here it is.. another song of Karen Mok - 忽然之间; Suddenly

the girl with her heart in p.i.e.c.e.s

I'm now, a broken hearted girl.. who awaits time to do the magic.. and heal the wounds, that so deeply cut through my heart.. I'm trying hard.. to not to cry everyday.. The amount of tears that i shed, for this long 2 weeks.. was more than the tears i cried throughout my life!

I know the decision you made is correct and logic.. But still.. it doesn't change the fact that i'm now a girl with her heart in pieces. But don't worry.. I'll be strong.. always looking forward to the future.. and not staying in the ghost of the past. I wish.. you could be a better person in future.. and come back and meet me as a better man. And we shall be friends, once more..

Good luck!

Fearful Weekend

Tomorrow it's Friday. But i'm not feeling happy at all. This is the first time in my life, that weekend looks so scary. Truthfully speaking.. I'm scared.. How to describe this kinda feeling.. It's almost like facing a death row..>.<

*Sigh* I hope, I pray.. that I'll get a good news for this weekend. Seriously, I need it to be a happy weekend.. But i'm freaking scared.. Everyday I asked myself why.. and end without an answer.. Which made me even nervous+confused..

I hope the angels will hear my prayers.. And give me the strength to face the moment..
I really hope so......

Confused

Yes, I'm confused. I don't know what should I feel right now? Happy? Sad? Disappointed? Relieve? I don't know.. I really don't.. *sigh* Now only I know, I'm not that strong after all! haha~ No matter what everyone said, or adviced.. Still couldn't be compared with what you're going to tell me. I noticed, only you, can save me, from this confused state of mind.

But I'm really thankful to all my dear friends who comforted me. Thanks peeps! *huggies* Anyway, no matter what might happen, I still have to face it right? Well, I guess this is what you call life~ Always unexpected.. So I'm trying to live everyday to the fullest.. live like we're dying. And.. give out my best, so that I won't regret!

Kris Allen - Live like we're dying~ =)

Be optimistic & Smile

Yup, just like what mentioned in the title, be optimistic and smile. In life, no matter how much you've planned, or do.. If it's fated that something will happen, then it will! No matter how hard you try. So, why not keep this kind of attitude, always give out your best, think positively, pray hard that everything will work! And if it doesn't, at least you know that, you have no regrets!

I'm praying hard, being optimistic, having faith, and never give up.. Because i know, it's not time yet~! Be brave, to stand up against challenges in life.. Today the sun shines brightly~ giving me a kind of positive energy! I wonder what about you?

Lets enjoy this song together while giving a huge smile to anyone beside you, pass on the smile and influence people to smile more~ So if anyone does read and follow it, and able to put a smile to anybody, do post a comment~

SMILE.. by Uncle Kracker =)

A trip near the nature?

Got a feeling of going for jungle trekking kinda activity~ But dunno where and who to go with.. Anybody interested? or anybody got such activity? coz me wanna join!!! hehe.. Remember during secondary school, every year surely go to FRIM (Forest Research Institute Malaysia) which located opposite our school. Science & Maths society will always organized a yearly jungle trekking activity. And the one i enjoyed the most is during Form 2, when the seniors held a treasure hunt activity where required teams to go through several stations and the first team to arrive at end point would be the winner. Although my team didn't win, but it was really FUN! because we need to trekked through forest grounds, go through rivers etc.. It was really coOL~

Not forgetting another great experienced after my form 3, where i joined my tuition center's trip after PMR to Fraser's Hill. Enjoyed a 7-hours jungle trekking in the day (supposed to be 5-hr, but then the guide himself lost his way~ LOL), and we had night trekking as well! It was really pitch black in the forest during the night. But if I remember correctly, there were few plant species, somehow illuminate in the dark, with a faint green color light. (okay~ i know what u guys are thinking.. but nope.. it's not supernatural.. really is the plant itself! haha!) 1 thing different from FRIM's trek is that, you could see different type of plants at different altitude. ^^ and to add in more to the fun, it started to rain half way through our trekking in the morning! Imagine~ icy cold whether + rain.. really unforgettable experience~!

SO........ I WANNA GO AGAINNnnnn~~ heheh~

Slightly relieve...

Can't sleep.. so i guess i'll write a blog before going to bed. Truthfully, I couldn't let my mind rest for these few days. Am I too obvious? until my colleague also thought I was not feeling well. And my parents finally asked.. But after talking with my parents, they give me more encouragement.. And also.. what surprises me is that, they're also very supportive and ask me to give comfort and support to the person i love. They said we're still young and not to rush things..

Thanks mum n dad! I'm so touched! Love yall LOADS~! and with their support.. i feel much much better.. the best within these few days~ and not forgetting my supportive friends.. Friends and family~ ^^ *huggies*

So if any of you couldn't find a way out from all the stress in life. Don't hesitate to talk with your parents. And don't forget your best friends around you, who'll always be all ears to listen.. *wink* Share your thoughts and voices to the world. And you'll feel much better~!

Favourite K song

One of my favourite song during Karaoke session with friends~ by Stefanie Sun. She's a great singer, and I love many of her songs. hehe~ I think most of her songs really sing out people's thoughts and feelings.

Here it is~ Wo huai nian de..

Welcome to my life

Heard this song on the radio when i'm driving back home today. The lyrics well described how i feel about my life lately.. I felt tired. BUT, I haven't lost hope yet. Sometimes, in this busy life, people do need a break. Especially from things that you routinely do, or from things that you can't get off your mind. I don't know whether any of you had this feeling before, that no matter how hard you tried not to think about it, your brain just won't listen to your own command to take a break from thinking, even for just a single moment.

So, to break that repetitive act, break the routine! And hopefully, your heart, mind, and soul, will be released from that repetitive act. Eventually save yourself for a moment... and finally you get to relax... to feel the peace of mind once again.. and able to think cleaaarly and properly once more~~

Well for all out there who're facing many problems in life... who feels life sucks BIG TIME... who feels unsecure... who feels depressed.... who feels indecisive...... try to take a break NOW!

Feeling out of place

Just some where some how doesn't feels right.. Maybe didn't meet him for quite some time. Cant get used to it. I know he's very busy~ giving a little time for himself so that he can work things out, and of course have his own time to pamper himself. Anyway, i'll find a way to cope with it. Listening to music always does helps!

My feeling now can be described with this music--> Hate that I love you; Rihanna, ft Ne-yo


Good news is... i'm taking a break for Sabah next week! yippee~ but still kinda tension recently at work. hopefully everything will turn out to be ok lo~

I noticed my emotional fluctuates lately.. doesn't know if he ever read this.. but still~ i'll always at all ears, waiting for you to give me a definite answer. *fingers crossed* Relationship this kinda thing.. shouldn't be so complicated, there are bigger things out there, challenging us!! okla~ a short post will do for today, just to update on my feelings. Everyone out there.. have a great weekend!

And do support Earth Hour, 8.30pm to 9.30pm!!! Love the earth--> the only home we have~! ^^

MC day

*cough cough* A little dizzy+headache = MC. Maybe too tired lately, don't have enough rest. Today finally have a peaceful day, just purely online and rest at home.. whee~~ ^^ miss the beach so so so soooo much! how good if i could just go to the beach for a holiday! ahhh~~ feel the cool sea breeze sweeping over my face, listen to the waves, feeling the icy cold sea water.. at night, laying on the cold sand, gaze up into the night sky which is full of stars~ that would be nice.. even just picturing it in my head, also feels sooooo gooooooddd!! hehehe~

Anyone from our gang want to organize a trip to any beaches next year?? (coz this year planning to go cambodia edy, haha~ need to save money a bit) ngek ngek~

Random voices..

It's been tough for me for these past few weeks. I don't know is it due to recent events or my work pressure that's building up. How good if we could just go back how we used to be.. just live a student's life, worrying about exams and gossips about lectures, lecturers, people etc etc. Having our frequent BBQ/steamboat party, taking the lrt to klcc for a movie, walking to jusco for Nandos, KFC, shopping... strolling around the rats-filled streets of setapak.. midnight yum cha sessions and crazy study group timetable at campus or at someone's place..go for CC or a mini CC at hw's place...blah blah blah

Ahhh.. i know those were the past, and we live to move forward. Well, looks like i just have to accept the way it is. But really ReALLy miss those days!! I can't say that I dislike my working life, because it's a totally whole new chapter in life! new experiences, meet new people, new environment. Maybe at times I'm feeling kinda down or should I say somewhat lonely, because I no longer could be with the person i'm so deeply in love for every single minute. Although most of the time i'm surrounded by people, but there's still this feeling of something's missing.

I know i shouldn't be too dependent, but when things like these which touches your feelings, it's hard to control. I believe, that he's trying his very best too, to build a future for both of us. Because I am doing that now. "Every single step I take, is to be closer to you.." this was written in one of his sweet pressie.. I'll always keep that in mind, and am willing to wait for that meaningful day to realize, no matter how long it takes, as long as you've never give up!

Alright, time for bed.. maybe it's the rain that makes me a little emo~ well, i'll get over it when i wake up the next day! good night people! ^^

The Year of Tiger~ RoAR~!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!Happy Tiger Year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This year, the first day of new year in lunar calendar is also Valentine's day, 14th February 2010. Hoped that everyone had a great celebration for CNY and also Valentine's. ^^

So what is my new year resolution? I think I'll put this no.1, to learn about investment! I would really love to learn more about investing in stock market. Although I'm totally have no clue what it is now, but I've made up my mind to learn it step by step.

No.2 Save more money!!! Yes! Now that I finally start to work, I found that spending money is always much easier than saving. 1 way to refrain myself from buying attractive but unnecessary thing is to ask myself, "do I ReALLY need this? What purpose for me to buy this?" hahaha~ and it works!

No.3 To gain more knowledge in related field. Which means to read up more about the field i'm working in. To see what opportunities are there available for me to expand. Learning is a never ending, lifelong process. One must always learn!

No.4 Loose some weight! Damn!! I'm getting fatter =.=" really should control my diet n start to do some work out.. Being fat not only makes you feel unhealty and upset when you're unable to fit in those jeans that used to be well fitted, it also lower one's self-esteem.

Okay~ 4 for now is good enough! hopefully I can fulfill my new year resolution! wakakaka~

CNY, really had a great time hanging out with cousins. Some of them working overseas n didn't met for 2 years till now! A cup of beer with some groundnuts is all perfect setup for a long chitchat! hehe~ Hope that next year we'll be able to do it again! ^^

Seeing all the kiddos growing up makes me feel older.. aikz! And this year is my first year giving my parents and grandparents ang pows as I've finally joined the working society.. I'm actually feeling quite satisfied I would say~

Hopefully I could strive in my career this year~ and able to spend more precious time with my darling~ =p

~My lovely grandma's birthday is on 1st day of CNY! Happy birthday granny!! May you be blessed with health, happiness and longevity~

~Lovely pressie from my darling as valentine's gift! Thx a lot, love it vy much! Muaxx!!~